who among you really knows me?
who out there can honestly make the judgement call, and say that i'm not good enough?
who the fuck are you to make that claim?
i deserve to be happy just as much as anyone else... so what? i'm a bit picky about how i want things to be perfect, so fucking what? thats my own prerogative isn't it? and if you have a problem with how i deal with depression, then do us both a favor, and leave me the fuck alone, and stop causing problems in other people's lives...
as any of you who read this blog most obviously know, there is a girl in my life, who i am obviously head over heels in love with, even though it is very blatant that it is not in the interest of my good health to be in such a tangled state over this one...
what many of you don't realize is the reasons behind my infatuation with this one...
she's smart, she's funny, she's beautiful, she has a constant air of independence around her, and she's tough- she doesn't take shit from anyone...
she got whatever it is...
she's got eyes that cut me like a knife,
she got pretty legs, that go to heaven every time,
she's got a gentle way that puts me at ease, when she walks in the room i can hardly breathe,
and she's got a devastating smile, that could knock a grown man to his knees...
Corny and cliche much? i don't give a fuck, it's true words right there.
and i know that she'll appreciate them if nobody else does...
but thats really the only way i can describe how i feel about her...
i couldn't tell you what it is about this girl that makes her so much more special and different from any other girl in my life- its just whenever i'm around her i freeze up and choke up, i don't know what to do...
she really is that one girl that stops my heart...
i guess in reality i don't stand a chance with her, but who can hold it against me to dream, eh?
who out there hasn't wanted something they can't have?
i don't care if i never get the chance, but the reality of the matter is, that i know what i consider to be perfect, and she sure as hell is it. and missing out on this opportunity ain't something i'll readily forget in my life...
but who is anyone else to come in here and try and burst my hopes, and tell me that i'm not good enough?
that i don't deserve to dream after her as i do?
that i'm too picky and need to lower my standards?
who the fuck are you?!?
you leave me alone and go back to your sweet delusion of reality, and i'll go back to my hopes and dreams...
and i'll do my best not to lecture you about how great of a girl you aren't, and how shitty of a guy you could pick up in reality...
it especially bothers me how i can't have a conversation with you that doesn't involve you trashing on the girl of my dreams as nothing but a bitch and a whore...
yet, you claim to be best friends with her, and then go on to lecture me about how even that bitchy whore is too good for me...
well, i think i can throw every word that comes out of your mouth right the fuck out the window and disregard you as i move on with my life and my fantasy....
if you care to apologize, do so to her first, and i won't be listening to a single iota of intelligent conversation you put forth until you apologize for being a bitch and a shitty friend, to someone i actually care about, regardless of how she feels about me
good day,
TRIP
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